07 September 2024 @ 01:53 am
OT: A Message From Mod Ragna  
So I would like to take a moment to bring something up to all of you on the Discord server, and similar messages will go up on the Tumblr and Dreamwidth. So bear with me.

I have been homeless all of last round and most of this round. I only lucked into the housing I have right now because the city I now live in owns the apartment. I have arthritis, fibromyalgia and Long Covid. I live on a second floor apartment now. So, naturally, considering I am the most able bodied person in my family even with my disabilities, I am the primary caretaker of everyone: I do the cooking, I do the cleaning and as such, I have been building all the furniture we've managed to get.

Up until last night, all three of us were on mattresses on the floor. I gave up a lot of energy making three seperate beds in a non-air conditioned apartment. It was hard work. I just got my daughter's bed up this evening and I am sore. I decided I'd deal with WIPBB business in the morning and was trying to relax and escape the pain I was in.

What I got this evening was a very demanding email from a participant. Now, I will not name names and circumstances, but the tone was demanding and it immediately soured my mood to the point I am still upset nearly a half hour later. I wasn't fast enough in making a correction. Instead of sleeping, I have now updated the posting list, made the corrections that were demanded of me, and I'm about to post a link to the final drafts check-in form and then stay offline for a few days. Maybe. I'm still not sure about that last part.

We are all human. We all have a lot going on. But I've been pretty candid about what's happened with me and, for the most part, everyone is great when it takes me a few days to do something, or we need to change the schedule to accommodate a change in my home life. But I'm partially considering not running this event anymore as well. I put in a lot of time and energy doing behind the scenes work, not to mention I take on about 40 fics a round to do art for. I love this event. But right now? Any enthusiams I had for making art/fic is gone. And I don't know if/when it will come back.

So yeah. That's where it stands right now. The AO3 collection is open, and I will always make sure people get their stuff posted, but I'm going to take a break for at least a day or two, try and get my temper under control, and reevaluate if I want to spend so much time on this event next year, if I even run it next year. So I'm going to keep the claims list open a few more hours, update it when I wake up, and then I'll take a break. Until then, Mod Ragna signing off.
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[personal profile] timespirt on September 8th, 2024 12:55 am (UTC)
I'm sending you a "BIG HUG" because you deserve it. There is always someone who ruins everything for the rest of the group. They should be ashamed of themselves. I hope things get better for you. You run this the way you want to and don't mind the troll that upset you. They can wait on you or find someplace else to play.
penaltywaltz: Sherlock: Molly - Grin[personal profile] penaltywaltz on September 8th, 2024 07:34 am (UTC)
They sent me a really good email so we're all good now, but thank you so much for the kind words! I really appreciate them.
⟪ skargasm ⟫[personal profile] skargasm on September 9th, 2024 01:23 pm (UTC)
I'm glad you've had an email clearing things up, but am so sorry about your personal circumstances and hope life gets easier for you. Kindest regards
penaltywaltz: Sherlock: Lestrade - Grin[personal profile] penaltywaltz on September 12th, 2024 05:39 pm (UTC)
Awww, thanks so much, hun. ::hugs::
nuh_s[personal profile] nuh_s on September 12th, 2024 01:35 am (UTC)
I want to say how appreciated your work as a mod in this event is! This is such a great event, and I know how much work goes into that. Thank you!!
penaltywaltz: Sherlock: Mary - Smile & Nod[personal profile] penaltywaltz on September 12th, 2024 05:40 pm (UTC)
You're very welcome! I may step back a little more next round, but I don't think I can fully leave.
nagi_schwarz[personal profile] nagi_schwarz on September 13th, 2024 12:52 pm (UTC)
Sorry you had to go through all that. Thank you for all you've done to run this big bang. o7
penaltywaltz: I'm A Mod[personal profile] penaltywaltz on November 16th, 2024 05:21 pm (UTC)
Awww, thank you very much, and I'm so sorry for the late reply.
selenic76[personal profile] selenic76 on September 14th, 2024 01:53 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry life has been so difficult for you, hopefully things will improve soon ♥

And thank you so much for all your hard work despite your situation! This is one of the few challenges I do in the fandom anymore, so I'm really grateful that it exists. But absolutely take a break when you need it, your well-being is your top priority.

Take care, sending hugs and good vibes your way!
penaltywaltz: I'm A Mod[personal profile] penaltywaltz on November 16th, 2024 05:22 pm (UTC)
::hugs:: I'm so glad you still love us! And thank you for the kind words.